Boston

October 28th, 2003 11:58 PM

My trip back to Boston is drawing near. I leave tomorrow night and will be in Boston until Monday night (conveniently missing the deadline and launch of my first project at work on Monday). I have tried to plan and mostly expect very good things on this trip. Yet going back is bringing on that feeling, deep down inside, that things will never be the same. Everything is different. I pray I can stave off the impending sense of desolation.

Our adventures are over. We’re still great friends, but we have to go into later phases of our lives.

And that, is perhaps, the saddest part of all.

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I was back in Brussels this weekend for a wedding, and it turns out that a lot of my friends (more than I expected) are still there.

The brief four day trip was short enough to lull me into a feeling that everything would be the same were I to still live there.

Now I’m faced with the question of what is worse: The false hope that if you could only move back, you could restore everything; or the bitter sadness of getting on a plane and leaving again, knowing that so many people you care for are left behind.

Posted by: Traveler on October 29th, 2003 8:20 AM

Personally, I hate all of you. But Greg, you’re a whore for not coming to NY. FUCK YOU.

That is all.

Posted by: tikuo on October 29th, 2003 1:58 PM

Nastalgia can be a good or bad thing. Kim Stanley Robinson talks about assuming ones past. In essence, changing the past by changing how it affects our present. It is easy to look back and thing about how good it once was. It takes more effort to look at what was good in the past and be thankful for it without viewing it as an alternative to what is now. Most of the time, we romantisize the past anyway. It is never as good or simple as we remember it. In this same way, sometime in the future we will look back at our present and think it better and more simple. Be happy you had what you had and understand that painful nastalgia only serves to prevent you from accepting and improving on your present.

Posted by: Wonko on October 29th, 2003 4:15 PM
Now I’m faced with the question of what is worse: The false hope that if you could only move back, you could restore everything; or the bitter sadness of getting on a plane and leaving again, knowing that so many people you care for are left behind.

i just can’t resist tying this back to greg’s earlier “lost in translation” post and how appropriate the quote is here: “Let’s never come here again, because it would never be this much fun.”

Posted by: gary on October 30th, 2003 11:24 AM

i dont care what those fuck-os say. you’re cool in my book. likely cuz it was me you were visiting.

boston rules! cuz i’m near there.

Posted by: shuli on February 12th, 2004 8:52 PM